Wednesday, September 24, 2008


This summer I realized that my heart was so cold toward God. I was so angry with him because of what is going on with my brother and I don't understand how God could just leave him where he is and not change him. I have prayed and prayed for him and I feel like my prayers don't help. So, I stopped, because I was bitter at God. Why wont God change Morgan's heart? Why won't He send someone to impact his life? Why won't He allow Morgan to realize he needs help...Why? As I questioned God and spent time in his word this summer I realized again that my thoughts aren't His and my ways aren't His and even though I may not understand right now....or ever, He is still God and He is still good.

Lately I feel like my life is such a whirlwind I don't even know how to slow down. I go to work, practice, come home and cook, sleep and start all over the next day. I feel like I don't have any time to clean, rest, or even do things that I need/want to do. This semester with school has gone by so fast! I have so much to do and feel like there is so little time. My time with the Lord is scarce and almost non-existent. I desire so much to know God more and to make Him known through my daily life, yet I don't have time to spend with Him. Maybe its more that I don't make time to spend with Him. The free time that I do have I am resting or catching up on housework. Today I have realized that I need to value my time with God and when I do have time, even if its only a few minutes, I need to spend it in prayer or in the word. Please pray for me to desire and for me to see the importance of time with God.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Red Devil Softball

Just wanted to let everyone know that my softball team beat Aquinas (our first region game) 13-3. It is the first time our school has won against Aquinas since we have gone to fast pitch!!!!(about 10 years) My girls are GREAT! They work hard and want to win! I love coaching them! Bethany #12 (Freshman) hit a walk-off grand slam!!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

These days...

Chris and I were talking just the other day, and we can't believe it has already been 3 years that we have been out of college. So much of our lives has changed! The verse Jeremiah 29:11 has never meant more to me than it does now! Daily, I miss Jacksonville and my friends and family SO much! But, I know this is where the Lord has me. I dont understand it sometimes. But Jeremiah 29:11 reminds me that He knows what he is doing! He knows my future. He gives me hope when I am down. His thoughts and ways are higher than mine, this truth allows me to trust Him. I desire that my life be used by God so much! But this past year was one of the hardest I have ever experienced! I LOVE married life. Chris and I have so much fun together and I could not ask for a better husband! But as far as my heart and my emotions, its been a roller coaster ride!

As for my first year teaching and coaching, I hav never been so physically and emotionally exhausted! My softball team only won 2 games last year, but thats more than they have won in 3 years. It was a building year. I also coached middle school about a challenge! Lukily I had some stud athletes on my team because I didn't know much about coaching basketball. I remembered things from when I played but NEVER dreamed I would have to coach it! We won 5 out of 6 games! This year....athletes are going to be hard to come by. I'll keep you updated on that as our season starts REALLY soon! Teaching, was probably the hardest for me. I love kids....high school students...not so much. I know God has me in the high school for a reason and I prayed for a high school job because I thought that this is where I could be used the most. I believe God is using me, but I didn't think it would be this hard. You see, I look like I am one of them, and they tend to take advantage of that. I try to be tough, but it is so hard! I have been able to share my faith several times. In school, with softball and with basketball. I feel like this is why I am here. By law, I could lose my job for doing that. I am lucky to be in such a good school system where the kids don't care. The administration may not like it, but I really don't care. I listened to Rick Burgess speak at his son's funeral last year and it really stirred my heart. Nothing in this world matters, only Christ! We try to tippy toe around and be these "good little christians" but never open our mouths! What a waste! Rick encouraged me to be strong and step it up!

Well, I know thats a lot to read, so I'll stop now. There are other things on my heart...but thats for a later day! I love and miss all of you!